Eye..

Hey,

Sigh, so I guess everything is fine for me. I've been feeling very wistful lately. I think it's the x-mas season. I used to love x-mas. Now I'm kinda down. I'm putting positive thoughts in my head and trying to keep myself up. But something in me just isn't right. I'm ultimately feeling guilty. Because i'm jobless and can't support myself or my family. But, I know that's not my responsibility. Well, it is to support myself but not my family.. Right? I dunno, alot has happened financially with my parents and I just want to give them all the money in the world and make them happy. I want them to have everything they've ever wanted and not worry about anything ever again. They work really hard and they should know that I above anyone else am truly thankful for them and all that they do. And all they've given me and give me everyday.
Music doesn't pay my bills right now. And I accepted that when I filled out the "True Destiny" application. I'm trying to keep my head up. I want to avoid them at all costs though. I mean is that wrong? But, they're always so worried about numbers. And it makes me sick. I know numbers are important but that's all. They're important. End of story. Why worry? Worry only attracts worry? I wish I could communicate this with them. But, they won't listen to me. Anytime I make a critique of anything they throw the whole "You're jobless and living here so you have no oppinion." thing in my face. I hate it. And I hate that I've been swallowing down so much. It is tearing me to shreds. I'm not one to take anything sitting down but lately i've been having to do that. Or wanting to for their sake. Just to keep things quiet. And all the quiet is making me feel horrible. There's something wrong. I don't want to feel horrible. Who does? But, I don't have a choice. This is why I avoid them. To keep the negative energy as far away as possible. I'm happier when they're not around when i'm in my own world. I'm the happiest alone. Which makes me sad all the same. Haha, this is a revolving nightmare. It's okay though. I'm gonna be okay. I'm gonna get signed to that big label and tour and leave it all behind and give them the money they need and live in LA and cut albums and inspire the world. Inspire everyone on the planet to go for their dreams. No matter what your day job or current situation. To just do it. That's what i'm doing and i'm so happy to know that it's my destiny to be that inspirational. To be the bearer of hope. I wish I could do that for the people in my immediate surroundings but, I guess they're the types who need to see me alongside Stevie Wonder at the Grammys accepting my 5th award on stage to actually feel proud or inspired. I dunno.
In other news and something good, me and Ofi are starting a clothing business together. It will be recycled tees turned runway. Very chic. Very fun. Very comfy. Very affordable. I think it will do well. It's safe to say. Especially seeing that we're both very driven for it to do well and make up some moolah.
As for the EP, I'm not sure on the release yet. I'm still waiting for my drum tracks and word. So it might not be out til like late Jan or Feb at this point. Whatever the case it will get done and released. I'm confident about that.
I'm confident about D as well. He's got good things coming his way and i'm so excited for him. And super obliged to say I know him and knew him before he was famous. Hahaha, cause I know he's gonna be famous. I really think next year is his year. He's gonna be a sure spectacle. I'm just hoping I get tossed a bone or something. Maybe while on his way to the top he passes my EP on to another and things will happen. I promised myself next year would be fantastic and I'm really positive that it will. So far so good. I can smell it.

Just trying to keep up the facade.

Ya know.

As any heavy-hearted rock star does on the red carpet.

Love&sugar,

Sarah Rocks!

Tsunamis And Numbers.

Hey,

Not a whole lot happening here. Finished the EP. Waiting for my drum tracks to return from down-under. I'm pretty bored right now. Which is no way to be. And it's not just now it's overall. I've been overall bored for months now. Nothing new has come my way. And I haven't found anything new either. So i'm just sorta keeping my mind and eyes open.

So Halloween was a bittle suckish. Not too much happened. Thanksgiving was also lame. My friend over stayed his welcome here because he's homeless. He was not a good house guest. And didn't do anything in return. And for all that, I was the one getting the shit from the rents for it. So that was the last time I think i'll have him over.. If not for a long long while.

I'm just waiting for christmas to roll past. I'm not super excited for it but it does signify the end and begining which is always refreshing.

So lately i've been studying more about numerology. D's numerology report is decent. His expression is an 8. Same as Justin Timberlake's. The 8 pretty much says that it's his birth right to have some dominion over the world. Which JT totally has if you think about it. My numerology is of course scary. 22/4, 3. My lifepath says i'm gonna be some sorta revolutionary shifter. And my expression says i'm meant to be an entertainer. You know what I saw that I thought was very interesting. D's an 8 like JT and i'm a 3 like Britney Spears. Haha... ahem. I really hope i don't end up exactly like that. Like her ya know? It's not all bad though. Iggy Pop is also a 3. So i'm thinking that I really may do something extravagant in the industry. 22, 3 ya know.. Kinda scary. Haha. I certainly hope I live up to the expectations of the divine and earth bound.

Other than that business not too much. Excited for the EP! Woo! I really think and know some huge breakthrough is gonna come from it. Everytime I think about it I get the jumblies in my stomach. Which is nice. =]

Everything is good I guess.

Just very still.

Like the ocean before a tidal wave..

Yeah...

Deffo like the ocean before a tidal wave. =]

Love&sugar,

Sarah Rocks!

It's A New Kinda Feeling

Hey!

Everything here is working really well. My mind is like Bombay traffic right now. I've decided to release an EP. Yeah, it's a big step. It came as a suggestion from D. He said that instead of a lame demo why not impress the suits and throw an EP in their face. Apparently it's a lot more impressive and professional. Which, after a lot of thinking I made the decision to go for it.

As soon as I did everything just sort of crashed into place.

I found a cheap alternative to regular CD Packaging, Found a great drummer from overseas who just pretty much fell into my lap at the right time, found someone who wants to refer me to their music biz pals and have now found the proper funds to throw it all together.

The best part about it all is that I found my ultimate fan base. I didn't realize how lovely Distiller/ Brody Dalle fans are. They're really digging my music. Like on a monumental level. I've received the most support from them in the time span of perhaps a week. And that... well that was and still is sincerely amazing. I love them so much.

With that said I decided to launch my T-shirts. Before I had a problem because my friend said they did it in bulk only but this time because she had no current projects she could just do them order by order.

I'm not making any coin. And that's okay with me. I am just sooo flurried to see my logo across the soul-holes of people from all necks of the woods. =]

I launched a few days ago and I guess already have had two orders come in. Including someone who bought two! =] It's seriously incredible. I'm so excited. I feel so humbled. It's just a great feeling having someone like your craft and what you do to the extent of wanting to represent you and wear something that shows pride and faith in you. =]

With that said, tonight I got a sweet comment. And lately I've gotten so many sweet ones but this one really pulled at the old ticker threads.

A girl told me (these are her words!) that she was happy to finally see a girl who can play like the gods. And that she wants to learn bass and that she now considers me to be her role model.

I just crooned when I saw that. She also included that she loved my singing. =]

As if the sugar couldn't get sweeter.

I've never felt so humbled. I just feel so proud of myself for impacting someone to that degree. It makes me swell with warm sloshy tears just thinking about it. =] It's such a reassuring thing. I feel accomplished and just wanna hug her! I am so proud of that girl for taking up bass. Any girl for doing that is strong. And I'm so glad I could help bring that out in her. =]

Sigh, I'm pretty happy.. yet I feel like I'm stumbling onto something big.

Bigger than me and maybe a foreshadow into my future.

I certainly hope it stays this way..

All's well that ends well I assume.

..Yeah.. =]

Love&sugar,

Sarah Rocks!

Happily Fatigued.

So the past few days have been on the rougher side of things.

First off our power was out for close to 24 hours on thursday-friday. It fucking sucked. I reside in Florida which makes that all the more worse. Hello? It's not called the "sunshine state" for nothing. Which also made that situation worse was that we also had no water. Yeah, I live in the jungle and don't have city water. The well water system won't work without electric. So, I'll just let you be the judge of how shit-tastic that day was.

My parents left Friday with mi tia to Tennessee and the Carolinas. Woo. Haha. They'll have fun i'm sure. They always do. So they'll be gone until wednesday I believe. Which gives me some peace and quiet... sort of. Well, some less hostile time with the munchkin at least. Haha.

So everything was good leading up to last night. I went along to The Olive Garden for dinner and then home. I cracked open a hard lemonade and proceeded to blast the haunting tunes of Muddy Waters, Robert Johnson, and the lovely Bessie Smith. All in that order. I knew folk blues was a more moody genre and the grand-daddy of rock n' roll but, I didn't realize how literal the "blues" term actual is until last night.

I was enjoying the sweet raw lo-fi sound and the wailing voices and then I just sunk into a depression.

I completely saturated my senses enough to actually give myself the blues. Hahaha! It was great and intense. Folk blues is truly a beautiful thing. I'm glad I let myself duelve into it.

Trying to get back to my roots ya know? =]

So while sipping on my hard lemon-odd, I called a friend and we talked until 5.36. He too is a musician and I totally admire him for making great music. He's been doing it for a while and it may finally pay off very soon. I'm totally stoked for him. So, he gave me advice and we talked about demos and albums.

You know... the best thing about him is that he says things I always questioned myself were right. And that makes me all the more reassured in the world.

So in a fun-size wrapper,

I feel right as rain.

Well...

Yeah I guess.. haha..

;D

Love&sugar,

Sarah Rocks!

The Secret, I Was Kidnapped And Other Tales From A No-Hit Wonder.

Hey you,

So, my last post was in may...... Hahaha, I'm so shitty at keeping up with a blog. I couldn't do it for the life of me. Anyways! My vacay was fabu. I worked on material stayed at a very luxury-ridden hotel in Palm Beach Gardens and blew all my cash. Yeah, Shit happens. Not to mention I received a to-die-for second degree sunburn from Miss Mother N. Ature. It was worth it though because I was so evenly tanned after the blisters went away... Haha, I know it's gross but hey, beauty is pain, right? Right!

I've been planning on updating this at some point and finally I'm doing it... several months later. Music has been treating me well. It's still the high to my kite. I've written some new stuff, done a few covers and still remain empty handed. In a good way... well, not good exactly but in a I'm-so-used-to-it-that-it's-OK-until-I-bottom-out sort of way.

And everyone here is pushing me to go school. "With what money, man?!" is my reply. Schools nowhere for me. Interior design is what they're saying. Pfft. I have no attention span for that shiz. So, I remain here moneyless and thankless. Well not so much anymore really.

Sometimes I look at my life and think man, what a downer. But on a positive tip, I'm fairly happy. Everyone thinks my life is suckish and it is.. It can be.. But, I look on the bright side and see many things coming.

I'd probably be complaining by now, but I'm done. It's only held anyone back.

And if you haven't noticed yeah, I did read "The Secret" again, only this time all the way through. Hahaha.

That book is so helpful, and it's made things in my life a lot better. I highly recommend it. But only read it if you are entirely open minded or else it won't do anything for you. And you'll probably end up criticizing it.

Other than that jazz, nothing much here.

Happy, Healthy, Loving, Loathing.

The usual.

=]

Love&sugar,

Sarah Rocks!

I Broke The UK And Will Swank In West Palm Beach.

Hey all.
What's new? Some stuff here! Haha, i'm so lame. =]
Anyways, last friday I was aired on a radioshow called "Pigtails And Army Boots" in the UK! They did a whole intro and everything. You know what... everything seems more established and downright proper with a british accent tied to it. Hahaha, it's true! She made me sounds like a fucking rockstar! Which I am of course... at heart... not really noticable-paparzzi-bait though. But those who know me know I rock like a star! Right? Fuck. Hahaha.
So, to cut a long story short, it went fab. My mom heard it too. She didn't think it was real if that's funny enough. Haha! Maybe she'll finally be proud of me dammit. I know deep down she thinks my insane music oriented purchases are in vain. I assure they're not! Hello? I'm totally going somewhere with this! =]

So, today I will be leaving for West Palm Beach for about a week. My sister is going to train for her new job and well, she gets lonely fast. Hahaha! So yesterday I just said "I should totally go with you.." And she's like "Yeah, if you want." And I was like "What?!" I packed my shit, straightened my hair and wiped out my piggy bank! I'm gonna lounge around the hotel the entire week. Soak up some sun, relax in the room, and work on some new songs.

So fucking fame-worthy right?

I know it...

All I need now is a drug addiction, rock n roll boyfriend, and a pappo-stalker.

I'll be fucking set.

There's no stopping this starlet.

-Sarah Rocks!

Zuchini Puffs.

Hey everyone,
My goodness!
I think I've neglected this blog long enough. I had to go back and read my last post to even remember what the hell I wrote about! Yikes.
Anyways! Things here are dandy. Seriously good. I'm happy. I can easily say that. My music has become my entire existence. I consider this a very good thing though. I don't need boy trouble right now. Even though there's a few punk rock boys my heart is throbbing for.
So, my music had morphed all on it's own. It all started when a trip to California came into play. No, I haven't gone yet! Buttttt, hopefully, in July if money is good, Donald and I will be driving there. Yes, from the dirty south to the city of angels. It's gonna be the greatest! I'm so excited, you have no idea!
Anyways, back to my music. When I told my super awesome front-woman-punker-chick friend that I was heading out west to see the lights, she immediately told me that not only would be party but they would perform a special show for us when we got there!! Talk about incredible! But, to put the icing on the cake she also wants me to perform at the show with her band! You can imagine my surprise right? So, I decided to work on my punk motif. I was originally going for that when I started out on my own but slowly veered away which made me all awkward n' shit.
I decided to do a cover of The Muffs cover of "Kids In America" and that's when it all happened. I gained more of a fan base with that one song than I had with all my others combined! Personally impressed with the magic I made, I decided to get into it. And wow. I'm Like a Mia Zapata Brody Dalle hybrid!!!!! It's sooo stellar. I've never felt more sure of my music or vox than I do now.
So, to prepare myself for this show, I decided to take advantage of my cafe job and start playing the open mic nights.
I ate shit the first time I played. It was a massacre to all things musical. I was insanely nervous at that. But it seriously was suckish. I got back on the horse and tried again though and it was immensely good. I was envious of myself! I went up there cool and collected and played like a fucking pro. Everyone loved it so much and so did I. When I walked back down that hall to head out for a cig, everyone just clapped and congratulated me on how awesome it was.
I know now right down to my toes that this is the feeling I wanna get high off of for the rest of my life. It is soo incredibly good and no one can bring you down from it. I love it.

So, that really covers it.

My life is surrounded by punk rock now and You know what...

I wouldn't have it any other way..

-Sarah Rocks!

Good Karma.

Hey,
So things are still pretty good. I'm happy. =] I may very well have a job by next week. Which is terrific news. I need the money and there will be some great gigging opportunities to be had there.
My interview is Thursday. Tomorrow i'm going to see my guru to get a card reading. I've been on an amazing hot streak and I really wanna know how long it will last. I wanna know if this really will be the year that rocks. Sometimes it's better to not know the future but I like an occasional heads up.
In other news, my old drummer and friend moved to NY today. I'm so happy for him and very green with envy. He deserves it though. I'm sure he's going to do good for himself which makes me happy. He's a good kid. He'll be there and i'll be in LA. How keen?
Blah blah blah, I got an e-mail from Hollywood today...
This guy who wanted me to join artistPR in hollywood called a while ago about my music. Mr. Suave.. Slowly lets me know that he needs 60 bucks to whore me to all major labels. I decline. I seriously can't afford that shit. I told him this.. He said that i'd never get anywhere because I didn't want to invest 60 bucks in a possible lost cause. So, left and hurt on that note, he e-mails me today saying he and the other A&R trash ahd a meeting and want to talk to me about my music aaaaggggaaain. Ridiculous.
I sent him an e-mail and called him saying that I wasn't interested. Maybe he'll get the hint.

I'll certainly keep you

updated on this

striking matter.

-Sarah Rocks!

I Fell Back Into The New Year.

Hey,
I'm so god awful. I can't keep up with this shit for the life of me. Hah. What the fuck. Haha. Anyways, Happy New Year! Hoorah! It's a turnover i've been waiting for. Nothing feels like surviving another year.
Anyways I have alot to say... well, document and archive for my future memoirs after my rise to fame.
So, the weekend before the New Year I went with my best, Ofi, to Miami for a well needed holiday. We went on practically nothing. I had about eighteen dollars for a course of five days. It was gone in a matter of minutes. We stayed with her grandma and siblings in an apartment built for two. Talk about cramped. It was all good though. Shelter, AC, food... neccesities. Survival in metro decay.
Most time spent was with her adorable cousins. One is a complete party girl. Big city in every way. The other is the same perhaps a little more grounded.
We went the Friday of our arrival to the greatest little pub around, called "Churchills". So. Much. Fun. They were hosting a punk show the night we went. It was the most amazing show i've been to. Next in line to Motley Crue defo.
The next day, Saturday, we went out to Miami beach to browse with our friend Michael. Its been so long since i've seen him and i'm so glad I got to see him again before the New Year. We walked all over south beach. Went to the actual beach and watched the moon reflect off the ocean. It was quite lovely. We got back around 3.30 completely exhausted.
That Sunday we got up and went to Ofi's cousin's radioshow on 95.3 Radiate FM. I told her about my song previously and before her show was said and done she played it. She played my song on the radio for all of Miami to hear. It was mesmerizing. 1pm to be exact is when my milestone was past. I'm still a-flutter about it all. I'm hoping that I can get more airplay from here on in from different stations. I'm also wanting to get a job so I can get enough cash together for a real demo. It's so exciting!
Monday was New Years Eve. We stayed in all day but went to a swanky party in Coral Gables around 10. It was a drag for starters. But after Midnight things started to look up. We left around 2, I think, and went to "Dennys" for some sobering early breakfast. We left there around 3.30, maybe and got home at 4. I didn't get to sleep until about 5. The next morning we packed and I avoided even bothering to change out of my Pj's. We left for home and as soon as the city limits approached is when my immune system lost its oomph.
Day after my trip home I was ill. Still sorta am. Not as bad though. It was all worth it.
Now! As for current events... Monday I did my first official interview for the press! Lisa Clark, bless her sugary soul, asked to interview me for her website www.pink-world.co.uk. It was awesome. I impressed myself with my naturalness. It seemed so much like a "Us Weekly" or "Rolling Stone" interview. I'm still in a surreal state of mind from all the wonderful things happening. And all that's to come.

My New Years resolution; get so close to the top that I can taste the crystal champagne and feel the heat of the stage.

Yep. This is the year of Sarah Rocks!

I can Feel it in my soul.

-Sarah Rocks!